So Close.....

Following on from the last blog concerning music I realised something for the first time a few days ago which brought God further into my world of tangibility.  I hold strongly to the Lord being sovereign and that as we walk with him, he will reveal himself to us more and more.  However, like anything, we can often be too excessive in searching for God’s revelation and perceive nearly everything we experience as a sign from the Almighty.  And because of our human nature, we are usually looking for God to grant us a sign that he is going to deliver something to us such as a relationship, a job, financial gain or some other advancement in our life.  We are selfish, impatient and discontent by default.  So we want, want, want, want!  As Mark Driscoll used to say, we can often treat God like the “Great Piñata” in the sky, whacking him with our prayer stick until all the goodies come out.  

In my walk, I have been guilty of this, big time, and it’s something that snuck up on me and caught me unawares.  This was until I heard the song “Feel so close” by Calvin Harris multiple times in the space of 24 hours and felt God trying to communicate something through it.  I had, up ‘til now, a perception that when I had experiences in my life like this, God was giving me a sign that he was about to do something for me.  “Oh, start rubbing the hands together, that’s the third time in a week I‘ve seen that.  God’s definitely telling me something.”  And I was right.  He was telling me something.  That I was being a goose and the repeated instances were completely irrelevant to my situation.  I had a false expectation.  Instead of walking with Father God, with Abba, with Dad, I was waiting to see if he was off to the store to buy me something.  It was all about something for me.  Me!  I am selfish, impatient and discontent by default.

Even though God’s in the picture, my line of thought placed me in the centre.  But as we all know, God must be in the centre, right?  Right.  This realisation, I have to say, is somewhat of a breakthrough for me, because what I’ve come to realise is that maybe Father God is happy, even delighted, even ecstatic that I am pursuing him on a deeper level.  Maybe he’s telling me that he feels so close to me right now.  After all, He’s a person right?  He’s personal.  He knows the number of hairs on my head.  Not even my parents know that.  And He loves me like a dad, so why wouldn’t he express his love to me in a funny way that I would recognise when our relationship starts to flourish?  So next time you see a sign, don’t think “ok, what’s God doing for me here?”  But believe that he might just be saying, “I’m here my child, and I love you.”  And in time you’ll get the sign you want.  When whatever it is you want the sign for, is in your lap.  So don’t expect something to happen tomorrow, but just expect it to happen.  Then you can concentrate on searching out your heavenly Father more.  Peace and contentment will be yours.  And mine...... (Hahaha, just as I finished this, we had a big earthquake, in Melbourne) Gotta be a sign!!!